Barbaric Poems

by Eliot Wilder

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This album was inspired by "Losing Streak," by Kathryn Schulz

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released March 11, 2017

Guest vocalist: Samantha Fuller

"I'm a Loser," words: Lennon/McCartney/Beck

"One Art," words: Elizabeth Bishop

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Eliot Wilder Boston, Massachusetts

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Track Name: Lost on You
I've never found the words to tell you
Didn't have the nerve to say
I'm sorry
I'm ashamed I've waited until today
Thinking I am a complication
Doesn't matter what I do
I'm sorry
I'm ashamed I've waited until today

There's so much important hanging over you
And I can see
Baby you're lost upon me
I'm settin' my sites too high emotionally
It's true, true
Whatever I do I'm lost on you

Honest it pushes and pulls on my heart
But I'm not pretending again
If I don't say it now
Then it's only a question of when
I'm counting the cost
Whatever I do
Of every love I've ever lost

I can see
I can see
Maybe you're lost on me, yeah
Baby you are lost on me
It's true, true
Whatever I do I'm lost on you
Track Name: The Losing End
I wish I could say I've come out on top
But that would be a lie
I wish I could say that I done well
I was some other guy

I wish I could say I've been a success
And my shit has added up
I wish I could say I never goofed around
Or ever been corrupt

When you're up, you're up
And when you're down, you're down
But when you're on the losing end
You are nowhere bound
When you're on the losing end
You are nowhere bound

I wish I could say I was a smarty pants
And I always did what's right
I wish I could take back a lot of things
That keep me up at night

I wish I could say I made a big difference
In many people's day to day
I wish I could say I keep my word
I always mean what I say

I wish I could say I had integrity
I always stood for the little guy
I wish I could say I knew why I did what I did
Why oh why
Track Name: Like It or Not
When I was a kid I made a plan
I didn't hear God chuckling
I'd turn myself into a beautiful swan
From a butt-ugly duckling
All my friends would be amazed
And my family astounded
The image that they had of me
It would be unfounded

When I was a kid I made a plan
To grab me some attention
Multitudes would turn their heads
As I defied convention
I would write my name across the sky
I'd live out on a yacht
So here I am, deal with it,
Like it or not, like it or not

When I was a kid I made a plan
To grab me all the headlines
I'd splash my name on billboards
While peasants stood in breadlines
My people would bow down
And ask me for forgiveness
And those who did not play along
I'd put them out of business

When I was a kid I made a plan
To live the way that commoners covet
And every laws of this old land
Well I would be above it
I would smite down all my enemies
Without shooting a single shot
So here I am, deal with it
Like it or not, like it or not

When I was a kid I made a plan
That I would rule the earth
I'd be bigger than Jesus Christ
And his dumb ol' virgin birth
Love me and I'd love you back
Hate me and you'd rot
So here I am, deal with it
Like it or not, like it or not
Track Name: Darkness at Noon
The sun it does not rise
And the kids they do not play
No one's laughing in the street now
All the faces are grim and gray
Birds are scattering unbeholden
To the sound of ricochet

All around there is singing
But the song it has no tune
Shut the drapes and kill the light
It is darkness at noon
Hey oh, hey oh
It is darkness at noon

A crowd is milling on the platform
And the train it does not arrive
Smoke billows on the horizon
A panic is in overdrive
A single thought shoots like a bullet
It is queer to be alive

We are lost and we are lonely
In a land of broken dreams
We are lost and we are lonely
We are tearing at the seams

The day it veers toward twilight
But it's not like you could tell
Snow's crunching under sneakers
In the distance rings a bell
A crow is winging overhead
Hello and farewell
Track Name: Ol' Mossback George
Ol' mossback George he had plans
Gonna be an architect
But every time he turned around
His plans got wrecked

While everyone got their day in the sun
Poor ol' George he got squat
While everyone got their story writ
Poor ol' George he got no plot

Good ol' George
Ol' mossback George
He-haw, he-haw, he-haw

Ol' George he kept the home-fires lit
While his brother got all the glory
Ol' George he did his dutiful best
But his life it was a dreary story

Yeah, all his friends they traveled the world
Lived lives so rich and rife
Ol' George felt cheated and mistreated
He never got no wonderful life

Ol' George got stuck with a nagging wife
And a mess of screaming brats
While all friends they lived uptown
Like them uptown aristocrats

George was angry and George was bitter
Sometimes was downright violent
George he took the Lord's name in vain
But the Lord just sat there silent
Track Name: I Be Lost
I drove me out of the city
In a blurred crusade
The landscape was all twisted
The trees a toppled parade
The people they spoke in accents
Thick as a glottal stop
And when I asked for directions
They dismissed me chop-chop

Help me
I be lost
Won't you help me
I be lost

I drove me out to the river
Wanted to cast all my burdens away
A stranger crept up behind me
He handed me his resume
Said he had a friend in Jesus
I need no longer be confused
He asked me to go along for the ride
I politely refused

I'm a billion miles away now
From what I can't say
No signposts on this road I'm on
To light my way
How long will this take me
Where oh where am I bound
I know that I am lost, boy
And I won't ever be found
Track Name: I'm a Loser
I'm a loser
I'm a loser
I'm a loser, baby
I'm a loser

Of all the love I have won and have lost
There is one love I should never have crossed
She was a girl in a million my friend
I should have known she would win in the end

I'm a loser
And I lost someone who's near to me
I'm a loser
And I'm not what I appear to be

Although I laugh and I act like a clown
Beneath this mask I am wearing a frown
My tears are falling like rain from the sky
Is it for her or myself that I cry

I'm a loser so why don't you kill me

What have I done to deserve such a fate
I realize I have left it too late
And so it's true pride comes before a fall
I'm telling you so that you won't lose all
Track Name: One Art
The art of losing isn't hard to master
So many things seem filled with the intent
To be lost that their loss is no disaster
Lose something every day

Accept the fluster of lost door keys
The hour badly spent
The art of losing isn't hard to master
Isn't hard to master

Then practice losing farther, losing faster
Places, and names
And where it was you meant to travel
None of these will bring disaster

I lost my mother’s watch
And look my last or next-to-last
Of three loved houses went
The art of losing isn’t hard to master
Isn’t hard to master

I lost two cities, lovely ones
And, vaster
Some realms I owned, two rivers, a continent
I miss them, but it wasn’t a disaster

Even losing you (the joking voice, a gesture I love)
I shan’t have lied. It’s evident
The art of losing’s not too hard to master
Though it may look like (Write it!) like disaster
Track Name: Broken Old Teeth
Couldn't take the pressure, couldn't take the heat
I was stuck in the kitchen with a burning piece of meat
Didn't have any options, didn't have any choice
Didn't have latitude, didn't have any voice
I was backed in a corner, I was gonna crash
So I put my teeth together and gnash, gnash, gnash

Broken old teeth
Grind, grind, grind, grind, grind

Couldn't take the burden, couldn't take the stress
The clock was always ticking and I felt duress
Didn't have a safe haven, no runway to land
Not a single friend to speak of, not a single helping hand
I was backed in a corner, I was gonna crash
So I put my teeth together and gnash, gnash, gnash

Couldn't take the tension, couldn't take the strain
The world I was living in caused me nothing but pain
Didn't have a fallback, ain't it a pip
It made me fucking angry, what a fucking gyp
I was backed in a corner, I was gonna crash
So I put my teeth together and gnash, gnash, gnash
Track Name: Crossing Brooklyn Ferry
You're so far away and nothing cuts through
You're so far away and nothing I can do
I call your name but you cannot hear
I call your name and I feel fear
Where are you, please let me know
Where are you, lost in long ago

Just as you feel when you look on the river
And when you look at the sky
So I feel
Crossing Brooklyn Ferry
Crossing Brooklyn Ferry

I hear your song a million miles away
I hear your song on the airwaves today
You make a sound and I respond
You make a sound and I jump in the pond
I will come to you like a faithful hound
I will come to you and I won't make a sound
Track Name: All My Better Days
Getting older
Getting feeble
Getting weaker as I go
Getting balder
Getting fatter
Getting laid down low

Getting cranky
Getting madder
Getting kicked in the can
Getting peevish
Getting grumpy
Getting like my old man

Say goodbye to everything I've ever known
All my wishes, all my wishes

All my better days
Are gone, gone, gone

Feeling itchy
Feeling mental
Feeling like I'm lost
Feeling tortured
Feeling broken
Feeling double-crossed

Feeling dotty
Feeling shitty
Feeling like I'm cursed
Feeling hobbled
Feeling damaged
Feeling like I'll burst
Track Name: Play Me Again
I see reflected in my eye
Those thoughts you hide in you deny
You hurt me with your selfish joy
You drove me like an unloved toy
I don't mean anything to you
You always take me for a fool
And when I get close to you
When I get close to you
You push me away
When I give up on you, despair of you
Then you come back and play me again

We're here and we are worlds apart
You are like ice 'round my heart
I run in circles to be loved
But yet I know that's not enough
You've raised my hopes a thousand times
Then let me down with alibis
When I get close to you
You push me away
When I give up on you, despair of you
Then you come back and play me again